The heart hurts...

First Eli's surgery went well. They have had some issues with trying to level out his blood pressure but everything so far has been going well. All of the machines doing the things that they are supposed to do. All of the people doing the things that they are supposed to do. I am forever thankful and in awe by the things that they can do.
With that being said, I have to admit I don't think I prepared myself to see him this time when he came back from surgery.Perhaps it is because he is older, perhaps it is because of the time that I have spent with him over the past three months. Honestly, it doesn't really matter the reason if you have kids or someone you love for that matter it sucks to see them go through something painful. Regardless of what it is. To tell you the truth I would trade with Eli in a heartbeat, I just don't think I am as strong as he is. My heart is fine and yet it hurts.
I am filled with hope now that the surgery is past. Hope for dreams that my son will have. Hope for things that we will do together. Hope for a healed heart for both him and me.

Quick Update

Time has really gotten away from us these last few months. All of our focus has been on Eli and Maggie. Eli has reached the point were it is time for his second surgery. This last month has been filled with more doctors appointments then I can count. And the last few weeks we have noticed a change in Eli. The first surgery that he had was only a temporary fix. Eventually the shunt that is in his heart reaches a point that it will no longer meet his needs. We knew this surgery was coming, however it wasn't expected this soon. These last 3 weeks Eli has shown that now is the time. It has been very difficult to see him grow more weary and require oxygen to maintain decent saturation's. We've experienced many days and nights watching him and closely monitoring him at home. We are relieved and also very anxious that the second surgery is here. The surgery is tomorrow at 7:30am and should last 4-5 hours. Please pray for our son, the doctors and nurses. We could use your prayers too. We can't describe what it is like to see your child after a surgery like this.

Our son is so strong. We are so proud to call him ours. These last few months have been hard but it is such an honor to serve our son.